a letter.

dear sienna,
if only you knew.
He died for you. He wouldn't give up on you now, and He wouldn't let you down.
He has a plan. He knows it sucks sometimes....the stuff you have to go through....but He also knows what is coming, and what is coming is going to blow your mind. don't give up. don't let them drag you down. don't let life make you want to die.
look at the little stuff. let it take your breath away. you wrote those things because they meant something to you. don't forget about that. don't forget the meaning, because without it, your life would be so different.
look at her. you didn't even know. you haven't even seen her face for quite a while....but she's always been there, looking at you, watching you, looking up to you. you could lose it all, at any second, and she'd still say the things she said. she'd still love you. she doesn't know you love her, but she knows she is loved. maybe you didn't do that, maybe you didn't speak those words directly to her, but she saw you speak them to a million other people, and somehow she knew.
don't get stuck here, in this day, in this moment, in this situation. there is more to life. there is so much more, and you have to grab ahold of it and never let go. you have to make the most of it, before it's over.
a lot has happened in the last two years. you owe a lot to those kids who brought you this far. it's going to be over soon...this whole life you've lived for the last twelve years. it's going to end. it's going to be too late for you to speak the words you want to speak. you have a few months to say those words, but you have the rest of your life to regret not saying them. so say them. be bold. be brave. when it ends, you don't want to remember the things you could've said; you want to remember the things you did say, and the looks on the faces of the kids you finally noticed.
you may just be one person, but somehow, someway, you matter to them. it's weird and twisted, but you mean something. your voice really does mean something. so say it. shout it. don't hide. your light may be the only light they ever see.
mostly, don't forget that the words you speak to everyone else are true for you as well. it seems impossible...highly unlikely...but they really are true. don't let go. don't forget.