sleep woes

well, this week was extremely difficult but the weekend is completely making up for that.

tuesday at work was very challenging and left me wishing i had done things for the last two months a bit differently in more than one way. i know i'm doing my best, but sometimes i wish my best was a bit more aware of it's surroundings and a bit more empathetic.
i came home on tuesday night with a mind that wouldn't shut up for anything and laid down in bed only to be so restless that my night didn't end until three o'clock that morning. but i was up and off to classes by nine thirty that wednesday. and then to work.
work on wednesday was fine, i was just extremely tired and making myself sick with worry slightly. (i know this fact may worry some people, but it's the truth--and it doesn't happen all that often, so don't freak--i'm okay) but i had a successful trip to the nursing home with some youth and one of the best conversations i've had in my life with one of my kids, so wednesday was just fine. regardless, that night i came home to more restlessness and, once again, my eyes didn't close until three, finally.
thursday was not so nice. i was mostly a zombie and since one class was canceled, i thought i'd take a nap, but i couldn't even do that. sleep would not come, so i watched some of my all time favorite television show (It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia--geniusness in itself). off to work then, at 2, and things were okay. on the other hand, i had a test on Friday in Abnormal Psych and i had, knowingly, put my studying off until Thursday night, so i was sure i'd be up until the wee hours of the morning once again.
late in the evening, my boss informed me that the overnight worker at our transitional living program had called in and asked if i wanted to fill it. so that night i got paid to study, but i didn't get off work until 4 am and i didn't fall asleep until 5:30.
i think i failed my test on friday. i thought i would take a nap afterward, but i couldn't do that either. so i went to work on three hours of sleep. i sat around most of the night and left at seven to go out with a friend. that didn't happen so i took a thirty minute nap (finally!) and went to a friend's house to watch movies.
i came home and tried to fall asleep but i sure couldn't do that. my roommate came in and i talked to her until one-ish and fell asleep at about two.

talk about issues.

so, i think i figured out, though, what my problem is. it's my bed. every night that i couldn't sleep, i came to the couch and slept on it. i can't sleep in my bed. and i'm not sure what to do about it, because i can't get a new one. it's not a reasonable suggestion.

anyway, i slept fine last night and took a nap today, but i hope this issue goes away because i can't handle another week like that.


this weekend i've gotten to see a bunch of people that i love and hardly get to see, so i'm happy. and yet, i'm feeling strange as usual. no telling what's going on in my head...