rainy days and thursdays always get me down...

thursday is the worst day of the week, every single week. i can't pinpoint it, honestly, because it's really no different than any other day, but it has been the worst day since january of this year and it's not getting better.
i know that at the beginning of the year, thursday was the worst because i was only working two days a week and thursday was the first day i had off after working. i would beat myself up and feel guilty all day for not having to go into work, for living a double life (life at work/life outside of work), for whatever. it was my worry day, and then the weekend came and i forgot about work for the most part, until tuesday rolled around again.
after i started working full-time, i didn't have this issue. i was working monday through friday, so if anything, saturday should've become the worst day of the week...but it didn't.
i talked to my supervisor about this and she said that it might just be that thursday is close to the end of the week (but not close enough) and i've been carrying these heavy burdens all week and i'm just tired.
i don't know. all i know is that today has sucked already and it's not even 1 o'clock yet. i hate thursdays.

on a brighter note, next week is Christmas and that is crazy to me. last Christmas (Christmas morning to be exact) was my first day of work in this job. so, Christmas day is my one year anniversary. last Christmas was great, though i spent most of the morning reading a book in an office by myself. it was relaxed and there weren't a ridiculous amount of presents and fake smiles and feasts--things i really dislike about the holiday season.
this year, though, i'll be with my family on Christmas, and i am oddly happy about this. spending a year working full-time and schooling full-time with hardly a weekend free to see anyone that i love makes me ready to spend time with the family. crazy, huh? i would've never ever said that eight months ago.

i'm going to try to make the rest of this a good day. let's hope it works out.