love intensely

4 AM, two hours to go....i'm staring at a lonely road...
i've got my hands...at redemption's side...

they didn't play that song last night. but...switchfoot was amazing, anyway.

i feel so funny this morning. like...i really can't describe it.
last night was fabulous. i can't believe it happened. i got to hear jamie tworkowski speak. and switchfoot...live....unbelievably beautiful.
right now i just keep wishing that someday i'd be able to do something as impactful as what these guys are doing. i dream of changing the world. i know i can't do it on my own, but i desperately want to be involved. i desperately want people to know how much they are loved. and i feel so confined right here...i feel like i have no way to tell people these things. like, like no one can hear my voice. i wish people could hear my voice. i wish people could feel my heart.
i don't know if it'll ever happen. i don't know if i'll ever be able to do the things i dream of. that scares me too. because if i don't do these things, tell people about Jesus and love and life and hope, then i'll be a failure.
i don't know if they'll ever happen. and it's very difficult to wait and see.

i've got my hands...at redemption's side...who's scars are bigger than..these doubts of mine...i'll put all of these monstrosities inside...and come alive...