passion.

i think passion is contagious.
i mean, you can be passionate about anything, and as long as you are passionate, someone will jump on the bandwagon with you. someone will want to feel that same passion.
passion is something that we all want to feel. we all want to be completely invested in something...to be head over heels for someone...and we don't even really care what or who it is. if someone else is sharing their passion about something, then we automatically want that same feeling in our own lives...no matter what the cost.
i see kids at work that have boyfriend after boyfriend, relationship after relationship. they are addicted to the intensity...they don't even care who the person is after a while. it makes me so sad...it really just kills me. relationships were meant to be three parts: intimacy, committment, and passion. to these kids, all they need is one...all they need is passion...all they need is "love."
it's awfully heartwrenching to watch these girls go through guy after guy after guy. and its difficult for me to relate to...but i see it in other areas of my life. all i want is passion for something. new music after new music, movie after movie...cause after cause...all i want is something to fight for. something to call my own.
it blows my mind to think that i have the thing most worth fighting for with me constantly...and yet i never fight for Him. i stand back and watch the world walk all over Him...and do nothing. i have no passion.
i keep talking about how i just want to love these kids at work until they are sick of me...i want to love so intensely...but i have yet to see that happen, i think. i mean, don't get me wrong, i love them to death...but i could be so much more passionate about it.
i think that's what needs to happen, as far as my relationship with God is concerned. i mean, i could read the Bible until my eyes popped out of my head...i could pray until i had no words left to say...but passion means action. if i'm going to talk about having this passion...i've got to show it.
and oh how i want to show it. my biggest new year's resolution: love intensely, applies directly to this part of my life...to work...to the most beautiful place in all of this town. i just want to share God's love with these kids. His accepting, respectful, beautiful, ridiculously overwhelming, enthralling love.