22 February 2009

You are Strong and You Love Me.

I think its funny how God takes the most random situations and completely envelops them in His love.
Last night I was at an open mic night at this coffee shop that is like a second home to me. I was sitting at a table with a bunch of people, playing Apples to Apples, and we decided to take a break and listen to one of the performers. The entire day, and really, the entire week before yesterday, had been spent in one of my cycles of constant worry. I get this way, this need to be in control, this constant over-analyzation of every situation in my life, often, and my goal is always to give control to God. That doesn't happen easily, hence the fact that I am constantly in this situation.
Anyway, that has defined my life lately, and in everything I'm finding it difficult to give up control.

I was sitting at this table, being among friends, being bogged down with worry and wonder, not even thinking about the God that has created every situation in my life, and is working it all out, when He said, "Hey Sienna...I've still got it under control...still got it...."
And the person we'd paused to listen to performed this song:

Heavenly Father
You always amaze me
Let your kingdom come
In my world and in my life
You give me the food I need
To live through the day
And forgive me as I forgive
The people that wronged me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place
I look at the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

The kingdom of the heavens
Is now advancing
Invade my heart
Invade this broken town
The kingdom of the heavens
Is buried treasure
Will you sell yourself
To buy the one you've found?

Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me

Our God in heaven
Hallowed be
Thy name above all names
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us wicked sinners
Lead us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons

this song has been a constant reminder of God's love, ever since I heard it for the first time.
it blows me away that, even when my mind is so obviously elsewhere, God speaks truth into my life...He doesn't give up and get frustrated even though its been several months since He first gave me this truth and I still can't understand it. He just speaks, quietly and constantly. He speaks.

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